The One I Loved Too Much

We all came up the drive, with duck l'orange in hand
And Tanqueray, and Ativan
The glasses overflowed, the candles all were lit
Down in the conversation pit

And while the day, burnt off to dusk
I watched him smile, the one I loved too much
I heard his voice, and had to leave
It filled me with, such heaviness and need

I came out carrying the charcuterie board
Julian was showing off his swords
I had no time for that, and knew I ought to go
I wandered off to find my coat

I slid into a darkened room
And gazed out through a window at the moon
I gathered up my things to go
But muffled giggling came from down below

I raised the dust ruffle and saw him lying there
Bottomless, and holding Claire
I fought back tears, and said "It's fine, we're all adults"
They laughed so hard they both convulsed

I flipped the lights off as I left
And slowly walked out to the yard and wept
The lawn was full of sunburnt dudes
In robes, all lying there, too high to move

They all turned their heads
And this is what they sang
"It's hard to stop loving someone
It's hard, so hard
When you can love somebody new
Love someone back that loves you, too"

And where I lay, the ground was rough
I longed for him, the one I loved too much

Then the guys rose and sang
"What about one of us?
Could you love one of us?"
And I just sighed and shook my head