On That Day (Five Years Ago)

On that day 5 years ago
Seems that I'm trapped, no shield, no sword
The unbeaten path got my soul so sore
Allured by the lust, something gil can't cure
The devil want me as is, but god he want more

Ever wish you never was born
Threat coming but you know that you can't weather the storm
Sector 7 outer heaven where I seem to reside
Trained to kill but I don't really wanna another homiCide
Everything I thought was the real, it turned out to be all just a lie
A product of my pride I don't want us to die
Either outcome is horrible of course
But if we both go ids say its par for the course
I think about the slums where I'm from, folks are out there fighting over crumbs
And running guns
And I can't do a thing to assist

I'm john stockton, without a ring, and the gist is
It's broke and I can't seem to fix it
Earth out of control like the scientists predicted
While I read the manual I struggled to find the truth
And the more I learn I'm even more confused
Out here I'm searching for who I think is my enemy
But every day he reminds me more of me
So to anyone I ever did wrong
I wish you well and pray you live long

As for me my choice was made
5 Years ago on that day
And it aint been the same way
Since 5 years ago on that day

Ever wish you didn't have to wake up
Lay in bed, eyelids could stay shut
That's exactly how I'm feelin now
But I know I can't cuz that's not my style
Everything I shoved in my closet is now fallin out
And makin a big pile
And if I don't believe that I can achieve the impossible
I need to quit right now
Either outcome just another let down
I think about the past and what I did to me
Those who passed on who now live through me
I hesitated to take action
And living like a coward aint crackin
And the more I know I get more frustrated
Gots to press on cuz we must make it
I'm searching for who I think is my true friends
And trying my best to tie these loose ends
So to anyone I ever loved
Sometimes you gotta go through hell to reach heaven above

For all of the times I didn't listen
And all the friends I lost man I miss them
The only medicine for suffering, crime and the woes of mankind
Has got to be wisdom
I heard a man say the mind is a prison
Possessed on a quest tryna find religion
Just too much heartache
Lead em to the water but cant make em partake
808s autotune and of course heartbreak
Heart race like the moment car chase
Feelin like biggie on midnight of march 8
Top of the world till you starin in god's face
As for me my choice was made
5 Years ago on that day
And it aint been the same way
Since 5 years ago on that day