Torn

I wake up to a stranger's head
Laying on pillow where you used to rest yours
It's been lonely inside my bed
Sometimes I find that I need to outsource

It's been a while since I've seen you
And I do not mean to bring back all the things we were
It's just that I find it hard to continue without you to keep me warm

Oh, I'm just a little bit torn
Oh, oh, I'm just a little bit torn

I wake up, 4 cups of coffee
Still use that machine you bought me
So I can save some money
And I still think it's funny how
After three months, still getting over speed bumps
Like deleting all our pictures and not taking new ones

I should control it, I know that I could move on
It's just that you make me feel so
Alive and then wish I was never born

Ho, ho, I'm just a little bit torn
Oh, oh, I'm just a little bit torn
(I'm just a little bit torn)

Where do we go from here?
I wish I knew the answers
I'm living my life in fear
Of going on new adventures
I wish I wasn't so used to waking up to you laying beside me
But if you're not looking then you'll never find me

It won't take too long for me to be strong
And really start living more
But I could be wrong, I hate moving on
And losing what we had before

Oh, I'm just a little bit torn
Oh, oh, I'm just a little bit torn