Sociopath

Look out
Here I come
A monster with no name
But a face that looks just like everyone
I blend in with all these humans
Just so they can sleep soundly at night
In the hope that monsters like me don't exist
And they can go about their business as usual

I'm partly human
I feel pain and pleasure all the same
But I couldn't feel as deep as you
And I tried to understand
But ended undermining all these
Useless humans' connections
Some people want to be loved
To belong, to be wanted, to be liked
But all I want is what is beneficial to me

I go through the motions
Imitating their reactions
I try not to hurt anyone
But it's hard to pretend that
My moral compass is working properly
Maybe it won't hurt too much
If I can get away with it
Maybe I can fool them with my charms
And push my way through it

So, God, tell me why am I alive?
Am I just a bad product produced by You?
I wanna know if this is joke
That I was born as a human
But stranger than the rest of them
My cunning mind won't stop
My eager heart won't stop
My drive won't stop
Do I have to finally give in to my sadistic desire
Till you finally relent
On letting me leave
This world in peace?

I copy the way these people smile
And thought a lot about why they do what they do
I don't get it
And it's futile to try
But might as well imitate
If that's what could get things my way
They all mean nothing to me
But they all cling on to me
And tell me I'm the sweetest person they know
I guess I'm so efficient
At lying and manipulating
I got them all wrapped around my fingers
And they don't even know
That they're doing things for me
I'm their queen.
Tell me if this is all I'm living for
Who am I breathing for?
Simply for myself?
Or is there any bigger reason for my existence?

So, God, tell me why am I alive?
Am I just a bad product produced by You?
I wanna know if this is joke
That I was born as a human
But stranger than the rest of them
My cunning mind won't stop
My eager heart won't stop
My drive won't stop
Do I have to finally give in to my sadistic desire
Till you finally relent
On letting me leave
This world in peace?
Leave me in peace