Damaged Anatomy

One day you here
One day you gone
I hope they shed a tear for me
Let me live on
It got me thinking, who gone tell my story if I don't?
It got me thinking, who gone tell my story when I'm gone?

Will I make it to heaven and what happens if I won't?
What if we just organisms using religion to cope?
Tell me why would I read a book that disconnected my heritage from my people
Fed us Jesus then they threw us on a boat
Fuck it

Maybe nothing's set in stone but your grave marker
The bitter truth is some shit that some people can't swallow
I take that pill when I stare at my mirror every morning
This brown skin may be the reason I don't see tomorrow

Talk of tomorrow for my children I want something different
No more cops getting acquitted from a murder sentence
Or a multi-million dollar business funding private prisons
When people see we different, but they don't treat us different

I use to feel I ain't belong in this world
Misplaced in a distant galaxy far away from reality
Thinking maybe I'll make my way back to it
If I rip myself apart from cracks in my damaged anatomy

I was drowning in holy waters, like baptism
I find it harder to focus often, I'm not as sharp as
My former self from before the trauma, I lost myself in
Them journal pages, my tears upon them sealing in my hopeless thoughts

I really felt like I had nothing left to lose hitting bottles like I'm brawling in Saloons tryna find the light
My stomach turning like the washers in that Creekside basement on occasion where I used to spend my time to write

The type of shit where punch shit and you scream, and that shit don't do a thing
But make you feel like you stupid now
The type of shit where you living life on the edge disconnected from all your sense like fuck it I wanna lose it now

Today I'm here
But I'm not here for long
I wrote it down for you I spelled it out in my songs
I'm giving you my story cause some day I'm gone be gone
The bright lights looked like stars calling me home