Losing My Mind

Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
i was lost i had to find it on my own
I never planned to do all this alone
Sometimes i don't know where i am going
But i gotta stay high and survive

Im stuck in my head I cant get these voices out of me
I just need to vent i really wonder who's proud of me
Im living but feel dead seems like everybody doubting me
Im losing my mind
Im losing my mind

Sometimes i don't wanna get out of my bed and instead of praying
and saying amen I'm wishing I'm dead
Im constantly fighting demons I'm constantly in my head
I'm constantly struggling with anxiety
and I'm depressed I'm just tryna find a way
i never know whats coming next
Do i pop these pills and drink this liquor its burning my chest
Do i just say fuck it it ain't working my life is a mess
She said she love me but she was loving somebody else instead
Have you ever felt like you was broken by something they said
I remember suffocating i couldn't breathe in my bed
Nobody was there for me i had only me in my head
didn't think it was fair to me so i started popping meds
Im struggling but they don't know it
I need a fix i've been broken
Im never the one to show it
I don't know i just keep going
I don't what love is anymore after everything these hoes did
I lost confidence and now i can barely show my emotions

Ive been
So broken
I ain't lying
Ive spoken
Im crying
Feel hopeless
Sometimes i feel like I'm dying inside
Im full of anxiety
Isolated from society
Sometimes I wonder if it'll ever change
Im searching for happiness in a better place
That's why
Im losing my mind
Im losing my mind

Ive been bleeding i've been sweating
i've been focused on this rap shit
Somedays i don't feel like trying
I'm thinking of quitting rapping
And nobody truly get it i feel like my world be clashing
I just wanna feed my family I'm praying to make it happen
And ain't nobody take me serious until i start snapping
But I've been reading and meditating on taking way more action
I learned to not show reactions
My conscious is trying to tap in
I got a dream I'm tryna grab it
Im cut from a different fabric
Your power is in your mind
If you believe it you can have it
And you gotta keep on working hard and consistently build good habits
If you wanna be the greatest get obsessed become an addict
And They day you truly fail is the day you stop going at it
Ive been fighting with myself tryna stay sane in all this madness
Sometimes i feel like I'm dying and my heart is filled with sadness
All this pain that i am feeling don't wish anyone to have it
They don't know what i've been going thru
I wish this never happened

I got this pain in my heart
Im filled with sadness inside
My emotions are trapped in the dark
Im using drugs so I can feel alive
Im bleeding but I feel numb
My heart is full of pain
I can never get to sleep at night
Cuz of all the thoughts in my brain
And that's why
Im losing my mind
Im losing my mind

I was down i was broken but this time around i've rosen
I got dreams like I'm Derozan
They cant break me now I'm frozen
I just flew away to cali Venice beach i dipped to my toes in
I just manifested everything i want and where i was going
Im writing a page up in my book that i don't ever plan on closing
Ive been holding my emotions
Ive been sad and they don't know it
i've hid it from those I'm closest
I think its time they read this chapter
and understand who the man is that truly wrote this