Pumped Full of Lead

When I met you, I was 12 and I was dumb and insecure
And I didn't know at all
I couldn't possibly infer
All the chaos and destruction
All the shit that would ensue
All the harm that I'd cause you
You were protective, you were chivalrous
And altogether good
You were someone I could marry
That my parents said I should
Let into my life, my genes, my soul
And you wanted that too
And look what I did to you

So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I ruined your whole life
Like I thought you ruined mine
It was my fault the entire fucking time
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I ruined your whole life
Like I thought you ruined mine
It was my fault the entire fucking time

You angered me eventually
You drove me up the wall
And by that I mean you made me think I wasn't sane at all
I cut my hair, you cut your wrists
At least you told me that you did
God, we were both such stupid kids
At some point I had realised my life was living hell
So I went and blamed you for it
For my friend's nightmares as well
I cut my hair and dyed it
The same day I cut you off
Turns out everyone else had the same thought

So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I broke your heart and left you friendless
I never wanted you to be
It was an accident, I know you won't believe
So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
I broke your heart and left you friendless
I never wanted you to be
It was an accident, I know you won't believe

So yeah, you cracked the code
I'm a stone-cold heartless bitch
I'm a bad liar who somehow brainwashed everyone to think
That I'm completely innocent
And fucked you up for fun
And spat in your face when I was done
God, what I would give to genuinely think
That I'm the good guy here
And to not be on the brink
Of gouging my damn eyes out
And throwing up my lungs
Because of guilt from shit I haven't even done

So go ahead and shoot me with your motherfucking gun
I deserve to be pumped full of lead for all the shit I've done
You're such a cunt
You made me think that I'm a threat to public health
Hurry up before I do it my damn self
So go ahead and shoot me, I'm not scared anymore
You've gotten this far killing me
There's just a little more
I'm already dead, just pull the trigger
You've destroyed my mental health
I'm not afraid to see the face of death itself
I'm not afraid to see the face of death itself