Are You Listening?

I cant blame her for what she did
I just needed someone there listen
I was 15 thinking that I shouldn't exists
Head deep to the bottom of a bottle
While skiing down a mountain
Not praying for tomorrow
Maybe if you tried a little bit harder
You would've seen I was holding the lighter
Cause I was trying so hard to change
But no one was listening
Maybe if you could'a seen through the fire
I wouldn't of been such a damn disaster
You could've tried to bare my pain
But you weren't listening
Can anybody hear me, Where am I supposed to go
You don't even listen, It's all I know
Can anybody hear me, Where am I supposed to go
I don't wanna live in, this broken home
I don't blame you for the things I did
Didn't I know, that these habits were gonna be consistent
I'm just lucky that I'm not dead
Eyes closed while I'm breathing in the ocean
I'm choking on these verses
Drowning in emotions
Maybe if you tried a little bit harder
You would've seen I was holding the lighter
Cause I was trying so hard to change
But no one was listening
Maybe if you could'a seen through the fire
I wouldn't of been such a damn disaster
You could've tried to bare my pain
But you weren't listening
Can anybody hear me, Where am I supposed to go
You don't even listen, It's all I know
Can anybody hear me, Where am I supposed to go
I don't wanna live in, this broken home
10 years and I can't speak
I just didn't wanna burden you
Didn't you ever stop and think
I just need a little help too
I get so caught up in me
Forget what it's like to breathe
If there's one thing you made me hate, It's me
We don't speak you only let me drown
You can't leave cause you weren't around
If there's one thing you made me hate, It's you
Can anybody hear me, Where am I supposed to go
You don't even listen, It's all I know
Can anybody hear me, Where am I supposed to go
I don't wanna live in, this broken home