Mobbed

Here's how a lad from the cul-de-sac
Started taking cabs to avoid the stares
That's a homophone homo here
Black poz too so leer step back

I was mobbed
I got jobbed
I was lobbed abuse
I slogged

When I gobbed support
Nets fobbed
So histrionic rage my sobs
About a child who had to nob

His minder
Bro caught cousin in the act my silence
Mum at home grudged her kids
Daily reminder

Threats with a care home then kicked out years later
Home weed farm bro attempt strangulation
Schools hate my uppity faggotty stations
That's why I tried to find a white male saviour

That's why I broke down but your entertainment
That's why my dreams are a big lifesaver
Made mistakes and I can't take them back
So I must choose the outlets to take away all my pain and shame

My cold ambition gives me purpose
Talk goes on they won't move on I'll make this album to help keep me sane

I walk down the street I get triggered
Shouting cunt to me I hear titters
Cams out I retreat but I'm fingered
I move out hide away for a year I got anxiety like I'm porky pig

Bi durp bi durp bi durp bi durp bi durp
My brain on a loop fear shame on a loop
What they saying whispers looks
The Yak the Snapchat there they took my dignity telling me I'm a slut

Contracted Kuh-Puh-Tis-Dee mental STD I am UD
I am still clean yet you'll still hurt me
Girl your boyf a cheat just not with me
Knew not initially

But decided fuck it go yet have the nerve to call me a hoe
In the lecture hall assault my bussy by toe
So brave with your cunt friends
A Dopey Crabbe and Goyle one each end

Why are you all harassing me
Why are your lives so empty
You see a weakness, abuse I see
I'm tired burnout, approval I need

You see my self-hate
Looking outside myself for answers
Shame, scandal
You intrigued, feeling, power-ful

Everyone else is doing it so it must be OK I think
He must deserve it though the douche the twat the fucking prick
Twenty-o-fifteen, whole world saw my peen,
Wank to a phone screen

Humiliated me
Betting on shagging me
Dickheads surrounding me
flaccid but cuppa tea

My traumas last four lustrums don't excuse behaviours
But proportional response this doesn't merit
Called out dongs getting involved instigators
Forgive the white cis straight not the black fag yeah I said it

I get these flashbacks (panic attacks)
I want approval your approval any approval
Self-love mine is frugal
Like a Lidl shop

Troll me doxx me
Stalk then picket me
Revenge porn me
Once spike twice assault me

So here's a little story how EH, I fucked up
I'll face my issues EH, rage coon fuck
I'm having a breakdown EH,
I'm having a breakdown C-P-T-S-D

Nightmares in sleep
Flashbacks chase me
Please let me be