God Talk

We have the most on-and-off relationship
Feels like You're not half as active in my life as Satan is
Consumed myself with making it, I forgot who made me
Thank You, God, for the grace that You gave me, amazing
You managed my rants and my antics, rancid
Said, "If you love Me, you'll keep My commandments"
God, I don't want to get to the gates of glory to get abandoned
Stranded and thrown into the lake of the abyss
My whole life people have come to take what they can get
And when they couldn't take anymore they left
Theft, death, got betrayed, lost my breath
They go from helping you to hunting you
Life has the power to knock the wind out of you without touching you
LIFE has the power to knock the sin out of you while hugging you
"It's not your fault", His words like a blanket to cover you
But I know how to fake it to the therapist and play it smooth
Even though I wanna scream so loud and trash the room
I hate it here, put me out past the moon
Maybe the dark side isn't as bad as my bad mood
But I keep my lips sealed like a bad meal
I wonder if some people know how bad feels
When you're watching your family eat their last meal
Parts of the world changed parts of me
I've seen things, it was hard to see
Softened my heart but hardened me
If you're complaining about the menu, pardon me
I'm going to the car to leave
I saw a family of five eating off a garden tree
While people here complain about the seasoning?
Tired of social media, there's no reasoning
Tired of socialist media, no need to read
I look inside wondering where's the God in me?
Where's Your wind? Where's the Spirit in the fog?
Speck in your eye? Mine has a log
Why I'm so slow to point out other people's wrong
I mean I could litter this poem with names to feed on
And I could make a killing killing
But I'd rather talk about You
Your killing gave me a living
If You're willing, it's my life that I'm giving
I can't fight this feeling, and I'm thankful for that
Conviction drove me to my knees and brought me back
Repentance is the word as a matter of fact
I know that it's canceled, but I'm bringing it back
Because it brought me back and taught me that
I'm flawed but forgiven
I'm a friend of the Father, not a slave to religion

Tonight I got one mission
And I'm being serious, but I got one mission
And my one mission is to try to push people tonight that are struggling alone
To push you into community, that you would speak up
And you would let somebody know, "I'm not okay"
We live in this comparison culture
And for many of us tonight, we don't even know it, but it's
It's sucking the life out of us
Depression is the leading cause for suicide
And depression is interesting because it's like this feeling of sorrow and gloom
But then it's also mixed with this slowing down of your life
It sort of stops you in its tracks
Anybody who's ever gone through depression would tell you
That it's not just something in your mind
But rather it's something you feel in your body
I think the church needs to give the answers
The church needs to provide hope
The church needs to provide a pathway to Jesus
We're not broadcasting our failures
And we're not posting our challenges
And we're not uploading all of our weaknesses
No, we're only showing you the good stuff
And just because we're only showing you the good stuff doesn't mean there's not some bad stuff
That we're walking through
And the only way you're going to walk into amazing things
Is when you get your eyes off of the grass on the other side
And you get focused where you are
You start getting focused where you are
And you start to discover, "Wow, where I'm at is pretty amazing"