if i called u up now

It's real
Physical now
Been so hard to wrap my mind around

That daytime
Can allow
For the things only night knew about

In my dreams was the only way how
Now you're havin' your own on a couch

I can't stop writing
Will you please let me play you a song?
My hand is hurting
Nobody's listening
Will you sing along?

And I know that it's so cliché
But I'm turning my blood into ink
And I really wanna know what you think

Don't ask
And don't tell
I'm not the same but you still know me well

I got eyes
Like a hawk
Cut my ears so I can't hear them talk

Did you finally leave the door unlocked
Or are you anticipating my knock?

I bet you're lonely
And I'm startin' to feel lonely too
Are you thinking of me
When you're finding it hard to get through?

And I gave you words to remember
But sometimes I wanna take them back
Cuz the truth has always been what you lack

If I called you up now
Would you wanna be my friend again?
If I say sorry
Do you think that we could make amends?

You know I love you
Call it limerence if you must
Please pick up and renew
Premeditated belated lust

And I know that it's so fucked up
But there's nothing that I can do now
And if there was I wouldn't wanna know how
(I promise I won't let you down)