Girls

I be hearing yo songs
Cause yeah I be listening to em sometimes
I be like that's a lie
That's a lie too
And oh why he ain't sneaking something in there about me?

Couple cards on the table
That I ain't really dealt with
Thought if I flush all my royals
I wouldn't be so helpless
I usually ace when I'm tested
But my heart is arrested
Feel like a joker
I'm selfish can't ever be corrected
Not too long ago was it
I really felt depression
I had the weight on my back of all the women I slept with
I even got a girl pregnant
I wish she had kept it
4 Years later and I'm still saying how I regret it
I still remember all the names we was supposed to give it
Even though I never met it
Man I still miss it
Losing you was a blessing
I guess I have to live with
You taught me life is important to the people that live it
I wish I could've had a say I would've did it different
But when you're young and a novice
You make some tough decisions
At 16 I can't imagine tryna raise a baby
So I guess mommy decided that she would rather end it
I wish I could've done better after that situation
But my heart was still racing
Searching for medication
All the shorties was chasing
I couldn't take the praises
The only way I could make it was if we consummated
Girl after girl with my love protected
My sperm was wasted
Gave my good
But my heart was bleeding from all the faking
They couldn't tell it was a game boy
Something to play with
Tried relationships but face it
I couldn't be faithful
Til somebody came into my life and made me better
Even after that
I still couldn't fight off the pressure
We broke up
And I went off to college still in bondage
Going viral didn't help
It made me break my promise
You got a purity ring
Ring you outta quit it
Met another girl
And told she would have my children
Met another girl and told her if the others didn't
That she was next in line
But only if Jesus permitted
Jesus tried to ask me out but I wasn't committed
Thought what I did my dorm room was nobody business
Sneaking shorties out the window
Ask Cam
He will tell that was really how we lived tho
Dropped out with chlamydia and some student loans
Got in another situation and I did her wrong
Cause I made promises
Again I should've really known
Would never come to fruition
As long as I'm involved
Months later and another dream girl arose
She supports everyone of my goals
Showed me Jesus
And she helped me to patch up the holes
Moving forward
I'm really thinking I should propose
Long story semi long
I never got the ring
Never got the chance
To grab her hand while I was on a knee
Realized that I got a problem I really I gotta fix
Before another heart gets broken and all because of me
Still made decisions and put my nose in a couple more
Thought I met the one another time
And tried to rush the course
Told her I would marry her
And give her everything galore
Yeah I wanted her
But she said all she wanted is the Lord
Dang man
Still selling dreams like it's fine wine
Hurting even more cause I'm looking at my timeline
Tryna find time to go back and see why I'm I'm
Would've let this Einstein break all of the guidelines
Maybe so my daughter will be smarter than rest of em
Maybe so my son will learn that daddy some messes
But then learned from every obstacle
So don't you folk think less of Him
Cause God saw the worst of him
And still put in the best in him
That's restoration



Credits
Writer(s): Omari Ishmale Grandberry, Gregory Gerard Curtis, Milton Adams Ii
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