Faultline

It's funny how I sensed it, funny how I knew
How one so easily became two
We went to either end and now we're in-between
'Cause all we ever did was replay the same scene
I didn't wanna say it, hoped it wasn't true
I know you thought it came out of the blue
I could barely even look you in the eye
And I don't know why I couldn't even cry

I need to let go, let go
'Cause you're not my responsibility
And though I don't show, you must know
Thе way we were was slowly killing mе
We turned our relationship into a faultline
But I'm still addicted to you in the same way you are addicted to wine

So we fell apart
But all we had was broken from the start
And I knew
Despite all of this, I still can't let go
I'm still dreaming of you
I must be out of my mind
Pretending I am doing just fine
When deep down inside
All I ever wanted was your love

I tried to comprehend it, tried to tell the truth
Stop thinking of myself and think of you
But validation wasn't easy to receive
And I got swallowed up by insecurity
I wanted to be perfect, wanted to be strong
Hide from everyone if I got something wrong
Thought I was easier to love if I was thin
So I stopped eating and stopped feeling anything

I need to let go, let go
Of who I thought you wanted me to be
And though I don't show, you must know
My voice got lost because I couldn't breathe
We turned our relationship into a faultline
But I'm still addicted to you in the same way you are addicted to wine

So we fell apart
But all we had was broken from the start
And I knew
Despite all of this, I still can't let go
I'm still dreaming of you
I must be out of my mind
Pretending I am doing just fine
When deep down inside
All I ever wanted was your love