Suspended By A Thread

Ive wondered these woods seeking solitude.
day after day, the winter grows colder than death.

Safe in my sheets,
each nightmare made real in these crimson decaying dreams.
I wonder what could be, to have no repercussions,
just to drift through the dark,
embracing the vacuous void as I empty my heart.
I know for sure that this world was not meant to be home for me

Reject everything I know, losing sight of my mind,
sanity crumbles to dust
My life is suspended by a thread
To conjure up the strength to take myself away from this life

I curse this wretched wasteland for all of its impurities
All I see are demons and unholy thralls
Living in this hell we call home
My sentence is to spend eternity
With this deceitful and destructive plauge
There is no warmth, there is no love
Only illusive abusive vindictive sadistic
Monsters of hell

He wandered, into the shack and all on his own or so he had thought.
But in his haste he forgot,
the terror dwelled outside the shed
and not just in the confines of his head

Scratching,
at the splintered barn door as the boy drew his sheets to his head.
Pray for the sweet touch of death,
untainted by pain
and the light at the end.
Dreaming, fell in a slumber in time,
This mistake I have made, to my death I have signed
Branded to eternal damnation
Contorted into unfathomable, mind bending shapes
Skin and bones turn to ash as my soul decomposes
The voices never stop,
whispers from the devil himself

"On his 13th birthday,
Father loomed over his son
Stroking his cheek now and edging ever closer
Sleep now my child,
for i must abide"
For next sunrise i'll pay the price,
my firstborns virgin blood

No remorse for such deeds, not an ounce of regret
He plunged the dismal dagger
with such force the blade broke in his leg.

Bandaged, cauterised,
his father grabbed his nape and started dragging
his dear son across the barn.
Writhing & screaming leave me be,
he tied the boys four limbs
and set him on his horse with him to swiftly flee,
to the ritual grounds,
six rocks would mark the spot for one true god
to rise exterminate our realm.

Lie on this cold hard slab,
I take a look up at the dreary sky and feel the knife enter my chest.

How could a man do such deeds,
I ask myself each of these solemn nights
as I dig my nails into in my eyes.
Shut closed one final time.
My heart beat falls to a crawl,
as death courses through my veins
Choke on my every last breath
Ive seen the worst and last of life