Controlling

I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
I've been fucked over to many times I don't know how to trust again
I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
It takes me a while to learn how to trust again

I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
I'm sorry If I drive you crazy
I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
I can't stand my heart breaking again

Yeah
I'm sorry if I drive you insane
I'm still trying to get used to being loved again
I can't stand fighting with you
Let's put that in the past
Leave the bad things in the past

Yeah
I just want to live my life in the present
I just want look forward to the future
Not waste time worrying about what happened back then and living in the moment
I just want to make more time with you
I want to share more time with you
I just want to make more money to
So I can get out this room

Get out of this might set i'm stuck in
Girl I can't keep going in circles with you
If you think I'm controlling it's because
I'm trying to do what is best for you
You gotta respect
You gotta respect that

I had a hard life before you come along
Before you picked me up
Before we first met I was depressed as hell
I didn't think about making the effort get a job or getting money
As you know when I have nobody to help me I always go to my music my music for Therapy

Now it means lot that your here
Your here when I need the most when I'm losing myself
When I don't know what to with my life
Your always there to catch me in your arms
I swear to god I don't deserve you
I'm so blessed to have you
You complete me

You have the key to heart
Your the only one I can open that up
Yeah
Your the only person I can open up to
And that's real yeah

I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
I've been fucked over to many times I don't know how to trust again
I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
It takes me a while to learn how to trust again

I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
I'm sorry If I drive you crazy
I'm sorry
I'm so controlling
I can't stand my heart breaking again

I'm sorry if I drive you insane
I'm sorry I didn't take the blame
I'm sorry for playing little games
Messing with your head
You deserve someone better but you choose to stay

Some days feel like is It's way to long for me
And your there to get me back on my feet

I'm sorry if you feel like there's no trust there
I'm just cautious about what happened in my past

I want to make sure I don't lose you again or you get into a dark place
Make sure your happy
Enjoy living life to the fullest
Honestly, I wouldn't be myself without you
Honestly, I wouldn't be the same without you

I don't know what I would do in my life without you
And that's real

Sometimes I can be controlling
I can be annoying
I don't want to make you feel like
I'm enjoying seeing you crying
When I say something to you know I'm not lying

I'm not a lier
When we go back and forth with you fighting it's just getting a bit heated

I need to put out that fire
When your not here makes me feel so low

Feel so down
Yeah

My days are getting harder and harder
Yeah
I need your company
One day we might buy a puppy

Dame girl I feel so lucky to have you
My whole life I was treated like a dummy
Now people are like oh look at him now
Look at how intelligent he is
Now
Now
I'm blowing peoples minds

Yeah I'm blowing people's mind they
Can't think I can actually rap

And I surprise them
I'm like look at this bar

Look at my song

I can't believe how far I have come
How far I have gone now

Yeah
How much I have grown as a person yeah
And no one can stop me