sound asleep

You criticise the way I act but when you're stuck you call me
I fantasise over a fact and then you tell me I'm weak
You wanted me to drop the goals I had in life so I could fit into you
And to this day it freaks me out that for a second I was willing to

That awkward moment when we said our goodbyes back in December
Agreed to meet next week but certainly you didn't remember
'Cause I was crying in the train
Because I didn't know which station to go
And you were lying when you told yourself
It was okay 'cause she didn't know

Took me four years to sleep
Going over possibilities
Of how to bring this thing back up to life
While you were sound asleep
I was hooked to the sound of grief
And I can't redo this past four years of mine

The countless fights that always ended up with me saying sorry
They led to endless nights of talking how our friendship was faulty
'Cause on my way to say goodbye
You kissed me thinking it would ease up the leave
But all it did was to make me cry all night on my red-eye to Miami

Took me four years to sleep
Going over possibilities
Of how to bring this shit back up to life
While you were sound asleep
I was hooked to the sound of grief
And I can't redo this past four years of mine
Of mine