plastic

I get the feeling you don't wanna see me happy but it's funny cause I'd give up everything to see you laughing
So don't put it past me when I'm acting passive aggressive and lacking attention when We're chatting
I'm acting how I'm acting cause your captions are passing as if you're capped on happy Wut you're capping
You're a fraction of the man you pass as
You're that spastic
You're camera pans back to plastic
You're half shit
Paddle boat
No mast on that ship

I don't need your company
I'll kick it with a snare
Where

Tear hair
And prepare for there
Where

Green pastures after the hammer
It all gets sadder
When laughter is chatter
To flatter the patter of past chapters
Fall flatter than batter in pans will
Tall manners for half of a man still
Cracked all shattered with half of a man's will

You're my identity
You're everything I hate and what I strive to be
It's time that we finally be together entirely
In time we'd see the miles behind me but the line I'm on is divided and the signs behind Me

I pray Allah help me
I pray God don't judge me
I'm praying that I find out the truth before it ends me
I want evidence
Not reverends referencing heaven
Peddling "put your pennies in the plate"
It makes me question their intentions when they say I'll be in flames if I die today
I cried today
I've pondered putting Smith and Wesson
To my head and
Letting lead settle what meds couldn't handle
A handful of metal pressed gentle on my mental
You'll regret it