Growing Up

Growing up I was savage shy but still A savage
Watching pac on dvd I told myself I Had to have it
Momma told me to stop but it turnt To a habit
Told her bout the Grammys and told Her I have to grab it
Got the dog in me I use to battle and Rap shit
How you the Best But you ain't Backing it
Serve you up for chump chain my Piggy bank was stacking it
Got connected with some clothes and Went to school I was a magnet
Stupid choice to spend it on but at School Atleast I'm fly
Looking in the mirror in this rue 21 Shit and all I can ask is why?
Looking back at that I was corny I Wont even lie
A couple years later I was dying hair
And shot a couple videos at the fair
Niggas hated on me not being street But I ain't care
I mean I did but I never cared enough To stop
Too black to be with the whites but Too white to be with the blacks
Ended in a cop car my homie ain't Call Me back
Almost went to jail but my dad he Wasn't having that
Farther was a mail man use to rock Them bucket hats
Told me if I wanna rap so bad you Better do it then booked a flight to Vegas that's where I met Jason
Took me hours just to spit a verse Like a loading screen on the old PlayStation
Thats when he told me aren't you Sick of waiting
I mean you got it but you hesitating
You think Gucci coming in here Spitting 16 lines 16 times man you Playing
I was pissed but I get what he saying
Basically raps like a bed and I gotta Make it with confidence for me to lay In
Like how can I win a fight if get Intimidated at the weigh in
Woke up with some confidence and A made play
Knocked the cd out in 2 days
Called my self cortez and named it Where it I stay
Took my ass back to town and all my Homies got mad I found a different Way
I refused to be the same and for radio I had to pay for plays
Threw album party and sold that Bitch out
Got a billboard with my face on it all Yeah I'm the shit now
Was working at pacsun to support Myself
Soto and Miranda told me I need a New brain how much I hurt myself
Then I got signed to a label N.w.a
I would've liked to say no but they Paying so I let em stay
Had my best interests in mind but Would rather listen to the dj
Used to run from girl like a relay Then I met a girl who wouldn't leave Face
And when decided to leave the label She ain't leave my place
Told me to quit my job and said she Gon pay for it all
But I don't think She knew how hard it was
When you coming from no where Trying to get buzz
Yeah my girl was stripping and I Dont care if you gon judge
Music was declining and my girl had A issue with drugs
I wanted to leave but taking care of Her I fell inlove
Now I'm trying to be the best and Make it with my own plugs
That even in the future if I do leave She'll be spending loose change on Versace rugs
Moving out to la I just wanna make it Atleast before my dad dies
Smoked his whole life providing for His family he got bad ties
Now that I don't live with my parents I always get sad
When I reminisce like Maybe I don't have as much time as I Realize
Always cared about what others Thought or how I'm recognized
When I was a baby I was raised by Sister
Never talked much growing up but Deep down I miss her
And when she cried to my parents I Always dissed her
Becoming who I am now that's Something I would reconsider
But bring it back to me im a work so Hard and make new friends
I'm a satisfied my greed and make New in's
Ima get it how I get it I can't promise You no new sins
And when I finally pop I wanna Drive my moms in Bens
I don't think I thank her enough for How much she spends
For all the times I never made it and She pushed me through
And for everyone seeing me now I Wouldn't be here without you

Growing up I was savage shy but still A savage
Watching pac on dvd I told myself I Had to have it
Momma told me to stop but it turnt To a habit
Told her bout the Grammys and told Her I have to grab it