Lemons Freestyle

I was on the 37th floor reminiscing
I won't lie in the past I had plenty women
And plenty women switched up
I'm venting in my songs I just wonder if they listen

A lot of women found love and hurt me
And left me
I think I like their heart when it's without love
I see a lot of close friends are moving different now they found drugs
And that's why them boy ain't round us

I had friends I love dearly
I tell them that I love them
But they're 6 feet deep so they don't hear me
I have friends I only see them yearly
But it's love it doesn't matter if you're near me

Ay you should see the type of money in my banking account
You should see the type of people that I'm hanging around
My biggest fear in life is that I'm letting them down
I hope they see the type of love that I'm sharing around

There's still guys that I'm beefing
I'll catch them when the time comes
AX has got a kid now
I love him like he's my son
I saw him only recent but it took me over 5 months
When life gives you lemons, you pick them up and bite one

You pick them up and bite two
I aint saying that you're wrong, I'm just saying that I'm right too
And I should prolly reconsider whats the right move

Cah'
Cah' when life gives you lemons, you pick em up and bite 3
If I tell you all my secrets you won't like me
Yeah we both been feeling pain but you ain't like me

Cus' other than a handful, no one in my family wanna talk to me
You prolly think I'm heartless, it's the way that I was taught to be
A miscommunication now you're gone for good unfortunately
I deeply regret showing some people all of me

A lot of burden being carried but I keep it in my private life
A lot of people I still idolise
A lot of people try and ask me is my mind alright
I tell 'em that my mind is like
Hennessy and cyanide, desperately I'm tryna hide
The fucked up things that keep me sleepless on my quiet nights
And trust I really ain't the violent type but

But I got shooters that will bang it if they need to
I'm moving fishy tryna see food
A lot of man are jellyfish the bullshit is see through
A lot words are getting spoke I gotta try and keep to

I know that promises are key
So I never make a promise with no intention to keep it up on my side
Have you ever met a girl once and thought to yourself
I could spend the rest of my life with this one
And spend the next 3 months building distance

Cah' you want something real until you actually have it
And you wanna feel the feelings 'til you actually catch it
And then you actually panic
Cah' for one time you're vulnerable with feelings on the line
I got a deep fear of time so when life gives me lemons
I'll bite 4 or 5 and count my blessings it ain't lime
They say king let's be honest, 'For The Streets' was your prime
I call my brudda AX I tell him tell me that they're lying

He's like bro, "ay you're the best in the country
The comments are saying otherwise but why do you care?"
I said fam
"Because I'm preeing shitty rappers getting all the fucking love
And it just isn't fair"

I know I'm 10 times better
And I don't need it verified but fuck it let's be honest
I would like the recognition

They're gassing up some dead rappers telling them they're cold
They must be confused I'll try supply a definition

A lot of things I never say but really wanna say
But I can never find the words when I get caught up in the moment
Her and I had an problem that I really hope is sorted
Cah' the mind never rests when my feelings are unspoken
I'm aware I got some tendencies I'm toxic and I'm potent
I hurt the people round me with my words and never know it
But if we're looking at the facts no one told you that I'm perfect
But I'm working on myself for something deeper that on the surface

Man, I really fell in love
Many nights in the trap and we were slinging bud
I barely see my closest so we never spud
But you know when them man pull up we embrace a hug

And my project done a quarter mil
And I know it doesn't seem it but I'm grateful 
I was sitting on a flight by the window
Started looking at the people had me deeping that I'm hateful

Me and my latest had a conversation
We hadn't spoken since the altercation
She told me straight that she started sleeping round
I said I didn't wanna speak 'cus I'm in devestation

It left a bad impression
I told her you could be the type of girl that I dream about
But everything you dream about is in a bruddas bedroom
And you barely even know him
But you'll happily stay the night just to satisfy your dick obsession

So where's your self respect?
We used to argue bout your morals
But now we ain't together you just drop em for a bit of sex
I've had a pornstar tryna message
She told me stay the night so I left it I unresponded
So yeah I think she got the message
I'm very sure she got the message