Numb & Lonely

I don't wanna be numb anymore
I wanna take the risk, I wanna feel again
I don't wanna be numb anymore
I wanna live, show me what's real again

I've gotten used to the rejection
It don't hurt me as bad anymore
'Cause I know, in the back of my mind
That it's a blessing in disguise
But I ain't gonna lie
It gets hard sometimes
Thinking about all we could've done
What we could've been
You didn't kill my love
Just gave me thicker skin
I'm just shocked I never got a chance to prove myself
But, half these other girls already put me through a bit of Hell
So I guess it's cool
I guess we're "just friends"
Just pls understand
That my love for you didn't end (didn't end)

Instead

I've been sitting here, lonely
Thinking of how lovely
You are, you are
Oh, my heart, my heart
Is feeling so lonely
Thinking of how lovely
You are, you are
Oh, my heart, my heart

My heart hurts, and I don't understand
Why I didn't get that chance
Did you have this planned
Or do you just not see me as your man?
Girl
I thought you were the only on for me in this world
Guess I was wrong, now these bridges burnt
Yeah, I was wrong, now I'm looking for what I've learned
I've learned that a lonely heart always jumps to conclusions
And that since I've met you, I've become so foolish
I'm numb to it, I'm clueless
What do I do, what do I do, what do I do, it's
Complicated
I don't wanna hurt you, but I ain't gonna fake it
You left me lonely, the only thing left to do is to start praying
So I'm gonna start praying

I don't wanna be numb
I don't wanna be lonely
God, show me real love
God, can You hold me
In Your arms
I wanna be in Your arms
In Your arms
God, hold me in your arms, tonight