Innocence

Picking up the pieces is not so easy.
This insurmountable void I'm faced with, brings too many questions.
I'm surrounded by familial love, but I'm lost at the same time.
Doubt, regret, the unknown, these are alien concepts to me.
And yeah there is truth in that we,
We never stop learning about ourselves,
Like how I'm prone to anxiety attacks.
But it's the damning realisation that only one person in my life
Has ever driven me to them,
That's a horrific feeling to endure.
You see, all I ever needed from you was love,
And care, that's all I needed.
But I noticed that I wouldn't get my wish.
Instead, now I wait for the sun to rise,
To fill this room with light.
As I watch I see how many scars I have,
Bleeding for desire, and pain.
I look in the mirror, and stare,
And I watch as these tears flow endlessly.
And then it hits me,
And then I realise,
That what I was waiting for,
Was a return to innocence.