Port & Starboard

I spent time alone
Sitting here in my home
The home I always knew but never let be know
Talkin to myself
needing nobody else
I thought i was nice
Ooo I didnt think twice

But I built that home on mud
So when it rained there came a flood
A flood that no one else could feel but me
The waters rose so high I swept to sea
I thought c'est la vie
This is the life I lead

When I found myself floating in the sea
I held on to my pain
So no one else could see
And I told myself
That there was nothing wrong
On the inside

I sunk so deep
when i sailed out on my own
My mind became adrift
And my soul a catacomb
My body went cold
Cause my heart had turned to stone
On the inside

Drifting oceanic
While Im working through the panic
Clouds roll in and thunder cues the rain
Waves crashing down while the wind on my body stings
And snap like string

So I rebuilt myself and grew
From the fragments that I knew
And held all them all together on the stern
Squeezed so tight til my hands and my body burned
But I pushed right through

So now when I find myself up against the wall
I straighten up my back
So Im 10 stories tall
Then you can't tell me shit
About anything at all
On the inside

When Im In too deep
In sorrow pain and woe
And Im shaking in my bones
And tears are finna flow
You can't tell me shit
Cause Ive been here before
On the inside

You don't know it feels like
Hell nah i dont wanna talk about it
I feel weird when I talk about it
My head gets hot when I bring it up
Lid on the pot when its heating up
Sometimes I can't stop when its coming up
Its complicated cause I feel like

Im losing it
Im losing it
Everything I had
Watching it leave is so hard for me
Oh its hard

But this might be the greatest thing for me
Set fire to the old
So I can grow a bigger me
Its hard

No one said it would be easy
No one said it would be easy
No one said it would be easy