Technically Knocked Out

No it's not that I don't really give a shit
No i'm just getting good at it
And by that I mean just hiding my emotions
While i'm going through the motions

And I know that you think i'm a hypocrite
But it's just devil's advocate
For you while you're not around
And you're never around anymore

And I just thought it would be nice
To have someone on my side
But no ones on your side
When you play both sides alike

Oh the things I've tried to hide
Are the things I can't deny

I go outside and smell the rain
Reminds of the good old days
I go to class, one that I hate
Reminds me of the fucking waste

And I know I don't wanna be here
But the drugs sure make it easier

Now i'm walking home in the pissing rain
And all for couple seconds in your brain
When the sidewalk was caving in
And it hit me hard right there and then

That I lost all my ambitions
Who I am in transposition

You can call this burning out
When Im technically knocked out