Calm Mind

Why can't I be the bigger person?
I just keep falling back to bed
Waking up with a fucking parasite that missed my fucking head
My own guardian angel lacking everything it needs to be
I wish it was something like the Yui to my Shinji Ikari

It's no use, I'm so through
With all the stories taught as fact to me
Let the wonders fade away
I hate you but what's new
As you think "Did they get rid of me?"
You just go and pull me back

From my day job to Michael haunting my dreams
Maybe I should go and cut him out of me
(It's not your time)
But I'm tired of the color red and waking up at Five
Please just give me some sympathy
(It's not your time)

Maybe that's why I feel so lonely
I'm trying to think about it now
Everyone made me feel so empty
Had to fill myself up somehow

I wasn't fucked up in the first place
But I did start talking to myself
And I'm finally the bigger person
Let me die up on this hill

My dad is gone but he's not in heaven
He's just watching me from the ground
Told me to find some friends in high school
Took me a few years to figure it out

Fuck Dawn, I do not have a conscience
It's fine, I got what I always wanted



Credits
Writer(s): Kevin Nenkov
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