Could I Hold on to You?

I'm tired of you
Spying on me
With your hands tied around my history
Did you think
That I would like
An open window in the dark of the winter night?

I don't know your name
(Why would I want to?)
(Why would I want to?)
I don't know what you've been on
Could I hold onto you?

Everything gets to me
I miss you missing me
Why am I so weak?
When the thought of you, see
For the first, for the second, and the last time
You've seen me cave from the inside
But the ghosts in my shadow come out for a bite
And now you're begging for an unfair fight

I don't know where I am now
It's like a waterfall full of dark clouds
Could someone save me from drowning?
With this new hope, I'm sounding

Save me from this wreckage, I'm entangled
From this place, I'm unable
To scrape my way through the darkness
Is there a light that I could harness?
Oh no
Or I could just hold onto you
(Don't let go, don't let go, don't let go)
I'll be there for you

Everything gets to me
I miss you missing me
Why am I so weak?
When the thought of you, see
For the first, for the second, and the last time
You've seen me cave from the inside
But the ghosts in my shadow come out for a bite
And now you are begging for an unfair fight

I don't know where I am now (I don't know where I am now)
It's like a waterfall full of dark clouds
Could someone save me from drowning?
With this new hope, I'm sounding

I don't know where I am now