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Man... shit feel
This shit don't even feel real sometimes
Sometimes, I feel like it's me against the world, you know?
Other times, I feel like, I'm the only one here

Lost in a mental space I can't define
So much time on me, can't rewind
Soon as I recline bacc to my depths know that I'll be fine
Fighting for freedom, why they try to take mine
Pray that I go blind and never see it coming
Spring bacc to my ways just like the eve of Summer
Quit playing Eve like she evil, my nigga, take a number
We all fall to our shortcomings, then hide when the storm coming
Me? I was born nothing short of a placeholder
Living a soldier, waging my war til my days over
Coast in my pride, excusing my silence, I can't focus
High as my optimism at night when I ain't sober
See that you callin, I sticc to my callin
How you call me a problem and never here to resolve it
I give you my offer, I'm acidic, dissolving
Live in precaution til these demons get off me
I hear when they talkin
They tellin' me often, I'll never break loose, never make truce, forever hate you
Know I'm whole, but in pieces, I do what they say do
Need another breakthrough, not another quelude
I don't need you niggas daps, I just need you to stay true
I got too much to give, my nigga, I can't lose
Too many reasons to live, my nigga, I can't choose
These niggas running they mouth we don't walk in the same shoes
I'm astronomical, watch me shoot for the stars
Getting lost in my own orbit while they pull me apart
It's all jokes til they pulling ya card
Niggas always think you soft til you moving the hard
I got everything to gain, I ain't losing my heart
Shit ain't never been a game, today ain't where I'ma start
Sitting on the sidelines, I been unruly to ya guidelines
Know he sent from Heaven, steady moving here on God's time
Timeless, pressure make diamonds
Stayed in my alignment, found a silver lining
Charge me with the murder, kill em all with kindness
Never been close to him, even when beside him
Ride on a wave, praying to Poseidon
Pray for better days with the sun on horizon
Young but I'm rising
Numb but I'm trying to meet you halfway, but I'm dead on arrival
Meet me at the wake
Cry me a lake or a river
Been so cold, my soul shiver
You couldn't stop me if you tried, a product of go-getters
Just know that the grind goes slow with us, I'm gold, nigga
Living off reasonable doubt like Hov with us
So much about us, I'll show niggas, just grow with us
Never for sure, I been isolated, leave you for dead and be surprised you made it
I'm inoculated from all the hate in your proximity approximated
Mind so sicc, made a doctor patient
I need therapy, for the clarity, ain't no parody
Been in favor, never needed charity just stating my case
Took an eighth and put it straight to the face
I'm going ghost without a sign or a trace
Hope somebody relate
This a sign of my fate, don't be trying my faith
But that's all in a day
Don't leave with all I can take
And that's just all I can say