half dead

Meditate in the mornings
Just so I can keep focused
My mind is always so worried
Why I gotta feel hopeless
When I'm in the clouds soaring
The sky around me is storming
That's why I don't like boarding
The flight of nightmare is calling
We drinking and feeling fine
The therapy's in the wine
As soon as I open up then you wanna go back inside
And I know what the feeling's like
When you're overwhelmed by the sight
Of a partner who's often sad been alone and sparking up fights
And I know we just gotta do it
Overdue to go through it
Tell me you fucking hate me so I can be steady movin'

And it's my choice
And baby it's my life
So I can fuck it up
And I can drink through it all night

Why do I try
To feel alive
I'm already half dead with this feeling inside I don't wanna lie
I love you but I hate you
Why can't I break through
To the other side
Already half dead but I'm alive

Will we ever get to fuck again
Will we ever get to fuckin' fall in love again
Why I'm paranoid thinkin' that you fucked my friends
I can sit and think you love me but that's just pretend aye
Why you don't eat or you don't sleep though
Anxiety been creepin' up on you through the peephole
Attacking your insecurities making you tweak though
It's really hard just watching you fall right down the sinkhole
Baby I know
I know it's hard to let go
When in the past you were happier than like ever before
But sadly I gotta go
I gotta leave you alone
Cause this situation ain't good for your mental baby that's why you smoke
So you inhale to carry on and feel good
And you stop shaking and start livin' like you should

And it's my choice
And baby it's my life
So I can fuck it up
And I can drink through it all night

Why do I try
To feel alive
I'm already half dead with this feeling inside I don't wanna lie
I love you but I hate you
Why can't I break through
To the other side
Already half dead but I'm alive

Fuck me up
Let me go
I know how it feels to be alone
Let me feel
How I wanna feel

And it's my choice
And baby it's my life
So I can fuck it up
And I can drink through it all night

Why do I try
To feel alive
I'm already half dead with this feeling inside I don't wanna lie
I love you but I hate you
Why cant I break through
To the other side
Already half dead but I'm alive

Na na na ooh woah
Na na na ooh woah
Na na na ooh woah
Already half dead
Na na na ooh woah
Na na na ooh woah
Na na na ooh woah
But I'm alive



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Writer(s): Anthony Difranco
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