Are You Even Listening

Look at me, look me in the goddamn eye
You kill my will to live, you make me wanna die
I can't get out of this place there is no escape
I have never fit in here, what's your excuse

I'm running through my mind, I'm trying to get out
This place is like a prison, it's running me aground
Your megalomaniacal bullshit is hurting me
Fuck this I'm out stay the fuck away from me

You cut cut cut me your words cut deep
No wonder why I'm tired, I can't fucking sleep
The nightmares come true, I'm trying to detach from you
Must make me look weak, but can you fucking blame me??

You say my soul is so dark, my heart is so cold
Still treat me like I'm 4 years old
When will I be a man in your eyes
Maybe I gotta wait until the day that I die!

Look at me, look at me, look at what you've done to me
Look at me, look at me, look at what you've done to me

I don't wanna say it, don't make me say it
Fuck it here we go, I hate this place, bluegh

So slam me gainst the wall throw that fist at my face
I wanna get out I need to get out this place
I know I fucked up but I'm just a kid
This extends far beyond what I did
You're insecure yourself you take it out on me
Makes you feel better about yourself to see me fucking bleed
I told you I wanted to die mummy why didn't you care
I really think you'd enjoy if I wasn't there

Look at me, look at me, look at what you've done to me
Look at me, look at me, look at what you've done to me
Look at me, look at me are you even listening?
Look at me!!

I'm just a kid, yeah I'm just a kid
This extends far beyond what I did
I gotta get away
Don't want to see your face
Stay the fuck away from me
I'm done I need to get away!
I don't wanna see your fucking face
I'm done, again
I am, just, a kid!!

Let's take it back to when I was 9
You left me in the cold and dark I thought that I would die
You have no idea what that did to me
I'm only better now after years of fucking therapy

I know now that you never would have left me
But that doesn't mean that I don't care
Meant to protect me, not fucking hurt me
What, were you thinking!?!

Thought scaring me would make me a better kid
How'd that work out well I guess it never did
The only way for this to stop is for me to leave you
Now I'm just a problem child with some major issues!!

You've fucked, me, up!!!
Cut me open one more time and remind me that I'm a fuck up!
Tell me and look me in the fucking eye!!
Say all those words that tear me the fuck down

One more time
Here we go
I want to hear it
Let's go!!

You have fucked me up!!