Alternate Universes

It is not a secret that
I was not my best self
You met me in the pits
Said I was working on my health
But I was working on a way out
And I'm guessing that that didn't work for you

I never asked you and
Now it's been a year
I never looked you in the eye
It doesn't have to be so serious
Just hung up on your hanging out
But you were never here when I was here

And now I'm feeling badly 'cause
We were never close
You're getting married in the fall
I'm hauling out to the Pacific coast
I miss you in your sunny ways
The way you meet me halfway when I ghost

And I know it makes me crazy
That my head is in repose
But I've been working on my heart
I couldn't get it out in prose
And I would never say it straight
And I would never write it down
But maybe I could kill it
If I tried to sing it out

'Cause talking would just ruin it
And that ain't worth the risk
And now the window's closing quickly
You won't miss me
You won't miss me when I go
I'm leaving Monday
I was never asking much
But maybe I would have said something
If I knew we wouldn't keep in touch

'Cause lately I've been entertaining
All these other universes
Where you call me baby
And most days I come home to you
In selfish other worlds
Where I am just your kind of sycophantic
Know it's not the most romantic
Working with the hand I'm granted

But I met your girl and I think
You are perfect for each other
There's no other pretense
When I say I'm glad you love her
'Cause the worst thing in the world is to go
Breaking up the birthday party
Start again at twenty-three
And I will be a girl I'd like to meet