Been There/Still Here

I was stuck in the shadows
Hugging nothing but pillows
Emotions like a cross road
Ohhhhhhh
But I found grace, I found mercy
Been there been here still here

I was born without underwears
Stripped of my pride before I got to choose
Living taught me options are not earned
Cause Luck leads life like its a coin toss
And I always loose
Guess I picked the wrong side
Middle class Christian Family
Stuck with unpaid bills and delayed salaries
Never wore the best sneakers
Never got to be dropped in a range Rover
Then teenage hit me
And Insecurities grew like man boobs
Why's everyone getting longer
What's wrong with y'all? I pondered
Voices in my head growing stronger
Anxiety disorder
Never asked for this cake
But life said hey, here's your order
Why can't I be just like the others?
Spent a decade
Ducking shots
Blocking Guts
Rocking thots
Cause these girls won't ride with me (he not my type)
Questioning God, getting mad
Getting turned down and feeling sad
Living on edge and dying inside
Contemplating suicide
But Only brave men do that weak stuff
So I let it slide
Then I found grace
God's pace, so the speed meter hiked up
Like its a Benz
He told me son, love yourself
In every way possible
Cause It's the best defence
Only spend your love on the best
And that's you!
Then i said Yes lord. Yes lord Amen

I found mercy
Been here, still here, been here

I'm nothing like the folks you know
Been through mostly crooked roads
All my life I wish I could
Choose to be the one you love
But I'll say I'll say I'll say
I'll say I'll say I'll say
God's grace has been here still

How we went from looking for free cheese
And getting stuck in mouse traps
To creating thirst traps
To bursting third wraps
Is a story I'll tell on another track
For now let's run up to the point
Where we could tell other anxious dudes
That they'll be fine
Like We been there and done that
Aye Gabby Rhymz
The one and only. peace