Downing

All this pain got me all insane
They say drink to forget so I drink to forget my name
4 Walls is the room with the prison gate
How can I surf through life if I don't see any wave
I feel my heart beating
The vessels in my brain
It's getting hard to breath
I think I'm about to faint
I hear my demons talking
I don't know what to say
Another trip to hell that I see like everyday
I've been mixing I've been sippin on the weekend
I'd say I'm drunk in love but why the hell I pretend
I'm in the deep end I'm in the fucking back
I make my own trails that's why I always lead myself
But now I'm all alone
All alone with my thoughts
Last night I went big but now now I'm falling y'all
I think I lost myself
But never asked for help
Maybe twice but the message was just unread
I cannot share my problems cause I need my privacy
I'd rather share my music my life my prophecy
Probably, I'm A person you gotta hear
My lines written in cursive thats how my mind Be
See the pain that's boiling up all inside of me
Dee mistake I made is when I popped an E
But I don't give an F
I'm a real G
And ima roll that H
So I can feel me
I need to feel I
I need to burn that J
Black Lives Matter
Fuck the KKK
I never took an L
Always land on my feet
I got a big shelf
The book of life facing me
I need another beer
The beer just needs me
I need to feel calm
So I got that Hennessy
I fill my cup up to the fucking rim
I'm downing with my drink the second I start chugging it

Down baby down baby down baby down down down
I'm falling down to the ground to the ground to the ground ground ground
Down baby down baby down baby down down down
I'm falling down to the ground to the ground to the ground ground ground

I think I hit rock bottom
Everyone's your friend when you got something to offer
If I diss them they just feel like i shot em
Cause my bars fall down like we out here in autumn
I'm just so numb it ain't right lately
All that kush and all that booze won't even save me
I had some dreams, I had some goals but now I lost em all
So I live by the sword till the day I fall
It's just the emptiness inside is what makes me try
Anything I see cause I just want to stay alive
And I can never see a therapist it wont help
That's why I picked to fucking pause and just cure myself
I mean it's raining thoughts
My conscience do be cold
My homie be my shadow
My actions show remorse
And I just pay attention
My pain covers the cost
Even when I'm falling down I'm not even lost
Find me in the corner while I'm sippin on my beer
Left the writer's block in the back and now I'm here
turn the beat into a track and then the track turn to your dream
Too much turning going on sometimes my vision disappears
My head spinning
I'm driving while that chick trippin
That chick I pick to trick I'm slick it's sick to say I play the day she choose to stay
And I can't afford the need to eat and smoke and plant the seed
That brings a younger me to beat the scene I chose to keep It up the same way
The same way
I'm out