maybe you're doing worse than me

We'll i'm a little bitter, i'm a little bitter sweet
I'm feeling like a failure but maybe you're doing worse than me
And i'm a little upset
Imma dwell on this
Imma stew for days until i cant get over it

But it was Halloween 2018
And i was smoking cigarettes
Got yelled at in the basement
In front of all of your friends
Never saw that as shitty cuz you were too fucked up
Maybe you apologized but if you did then i forgot

I could name a lot of times i was the butt end of a joke
I was hiding in the kitchen, just wanting to go home
I was driving back and forth between the taco bell on highway 16
Always paying for it, and now i'm not look at my savings

And sure i hit the psych ward
And sure i'm fucking broke
But id prefer that to being made fun of and being allowed to be alone

My roommate notices the signs the asking for permission
I dont know if he hates me or if he hurts the same way i did
Well, im a little bitter, i'm a little bitter sweet
I'm feeling like a failure but maybe you're doing worse than me

And i'm a little upset
Imma dwell on this
Imma stew for days until i cant get over it