Better Man

I'll be a better man today
I'll be good I'll be good
And I'll love the world like I should
Ya I'll be good I'll be good
For all of the times that I never could

If only I could rewrite the narrative
Each time I read lines I'm reciting passages
Of street fights and batteries
Battling battering's looking for a bat to swing
Rewinding back to things reminded of tragedy
After all the masses wakes and caskets at the graves
I became a basket case
I'm tapped I snap and act insane
I was raised with savage rage
I taught to smash your face when aggravated
But I won't be defined by past mistakes
I have to change
And recalibrate my design to keep finding my happy place
And leave behind the bad old days
Like that was just a passing phase
a fad a stage I had to graduate
Through all the madness please forgive my lack of patience

I'll be a better man today
I'll be good I'll be good
And I'll love the world like I should
Ya I'll be good I'll be good
For all of the times that I never could

Yo will my identity forever be trapped at twenty-three
After everything I've done
Is the sum of my worth the hurt not the love
And it can tend to be my friends that never the discrepancy
It's always who I was not the man that I've become
I'd like to leave a legacy that lets me rest in peace
And sets me free from the memories when I was less than decent
I rose above from the slum
Turned over a new leaf got a new lease
And at least two pairs of new sneakers
You want to walk a mile in my shoes you can choose either
I got a duel nature both cruel beast and zoo keeper
Because where I'm from the rule of thumb was never run
And to swing before they swung
I took my lumps and bruised deeper than some
When the wounds heal from the cuts
I soak in the shine and smile and let the moon yield to the sun

I'll be a better man today
I'll be good I'll be good
And I'll love the world like I should
Ya I'll be good I'll be good
For all of the times that I never could

I am damaged I am broken
I can manage I am coping
I am staring eyes are open
in the mirror trying to focus
It appears that time has frozen
In the years that I have grown in
I fear my fierce in violent moments
Have come to bear and I am hopeless
But you cannot compare the life I chosen
To the one where I was dealt a hand most guys would fold with
But I ante'd up with all my tokens
Yo I'm going for broke and owned it
An hoping that no one noticed
I know that I own the bulk of onus
For my role in such and such with so and so
And so on and so forth because I could keep on going
But it is what it is
What's done is done and over
I'm older now grow up
Not better than but I'm trying to be a better man
So show love and lend a hand
Or poke fun but you know what

I'll be a better man today
I'll be good I'll be good
And I'll love the world like I should
Ya I'll be good I'll be good
For all of the time
I'll be good I'll be good
And I'll love the world like I should
Ya I'll be good I'll be good
For all of the times that I never could