Hectic

You're not here but I still pretend cuz it's
Not ideal when it comes to an end I'm
Writing words that I mean to say
But I can't get myself to follow through with it

I'm on your side
But I could never find the time
Not tryna hide
But now I'm left alone

And I never needed nothing else from you
I'm packing all of my feelings in the bag with my
Dumb actions that led to this
I wanna try and pretend
But really, you don't know anything
You don't know shit

Imma put another ham on the plate
Another meal just to feel I ain't rotting away
To the shell of self
Imma carry weight every day
But I ain't gonna be a quitter either way it's the same
I'm sane, trust me
Every day could be pain
But I'm running to the other side, staying awake
I got just on my side
Imma take it back to the other side
Yeah I'm still awake but not as much

Don't fret cuz you like me
I'm high of the aftermath of something I'd seen
I stopped tryna find me right after I found you
We were high key low
You don't wanna find me just in a place
I'd never like to see you
But I'd like to
See if things are gonna work despite to
Night
Don't you put me in a good mood I
Don't know what it's gonna do to
Night