Lying to Myself

Tell myself I'm happy, but that's a lie
Tell myself I'm happy, I wanna die
Tell myself I'm happy, while I cry
Tell myself I'm happy, I don't even try

I'm staring in the mirror, tryna overcome the fear
But I'm riddled with anxiety, I just need some privacy
Got demons all inside of me
Who you see is not who I am
Wanna smile, ain't a happy man
So I play pretend, tell em that I'm fine
But I'm trapped in my mind, yeah I'm trapped in my life
On a wild ride, yeah I need to slow down
Crowd getting loud, yeah no stopping now
I just wanna make a couple thou
Doing what I love, but I don't know how
Tell myself I'm on the right path, right track
Me against me, time to fight back
Sick of being angry, hating, everything I ain't ever changing

Tell myself I'm happy, but that's a lie
Tell myself I'm happy, I wanna die
Tell myself I'm happy, while I cry
Tell myself I'm happy, I don't even try

Lying to myself, I'm calling out for help
Lying to myself, I'm blaming someone else
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying

I tell myself that I'm happy
But it feels like I'm acting
All eyes on me like an athlete
Running in circles like a track meet
On the outside I'm smiling, yup everythings fine
But take a dive inside my mind and soon you'll find
I'm broken like you, hearts been bruised
Yeah broken in two
Ask me what to do, but I ain't got a clue
Looking at my past and I've always been a fool
Ain't afraid to admit that it's true
Cause I use to be depressed, didn't focus on my interests
Almost became slave to the system
But I kept pushing, on my way to the top
Climb from the bottom I ain't looking

Tell myself I'm happy, but that's a lie
Tell myself I'm happy, I wanna die
Tell myself I'm happy, while I cry
Tell myself I'm happy, I don't even try

Lying to myself, I'm calling out for help
Lying to myself, I'm blaming someone else
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying

Need to take responsibility
Rid of the doubt that is filling me
Keeping building on the skills I need
Believe in my ability
I've garned the agility
Now I just need stability
I'm letting out the inner me
No more energy for enemies

Lying to myself, I'm calling out for help
Lying to myself, I'm blaming someone else
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying
Lying to myself, I'm calling out for help
Lying to myself, I'm blaming someone else
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying
I'm lying to myself, I-I-I'm lying



Credits
Writer(s): Huy Tran, Dustin Robert Nelson
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