Thoughts

Things were on my mind I wrote it down but it don't hit
Nowadays them words don't matter they listen to when I spit
And I know they like it cuz when Im rhymin yh they wont dip
Cuz they're decidin which side they're sidin with yh but they won't snitch

And yh I get it its klm u ever see me lookin pressed
It's always jokes and laughter with my guys and I aint stressed
But life ain't always easy make it through until its blessed
And I gotta keep my faith it's all I got cause lifes a test

Look I know it might seem like people are sticking by your side
But when they mad at u they attack things that u just try to hide
Swear to god they won't spill but in the end yh they just lie
Cause trust needs to be built I ain't with it until they try

My bro it hurts I'm not alright not even gonna lie
Don't know how to feel I got no more tears left to cry
But when I do I sleep it off wake up like everythings alright
Cause I just wanna break the cycle feel normal yh just one time

Look it's pretty deep tho
How bedtimes went from 8 to not getting any sleep tho
From stressing about sats to gcses and that
Used to play hide and seek count from 1 to 10 don't peak tho

Yh I think it's pretty deep how all of us have to age
Growing up turning old having to turn to the next page
Grow apart from old friends knowing you had to disengage
Yh it's just the way of life moving you to the next stage

U might not want to go U might just wanna stay
Even though you know you can not just stay in the same place
Moving on keep your memories don't let them go to waste
Had it easy when I was young now its real life ive got to face

And yh Im only 14 conversating with some fiends
Yh they talk behind my back unaware that I ain't asleep
Got my eyes wide open still acting like I can't see
Cause I'm used to people hating without even knowing me

And they chat and they chat dont even know what they believe
And I'm tired of it tired of feeling all of this grief
Wanna run straight past it they trippin me by my feet
Been holding my breath just wanna exhale and feel relief

Look it's pretty deep tho
How one day Im strong and the next I'm feeling kinda weak tho
From stressing about sats to spitting all of these facts
Used to climb at the park now life's lookin kinda steep tho

Things were on my mind I wrote it down but it don't hit
Nowadays them words don't matter they listen to when I spit
And I know they like it cuz when Im rhymin yh they wont dip
Cuz they're decidin which side they're sidin with yh but they won't snitch

And yh I get it its klm u ever see me lookin pressed
It's always jokes and laughter with my guys and I aint stressed
But life ain't always easy make it through until its blessed
And I gotta keep my faith it's all I got cause lifes a test