The Poison I Was

I want that rage back
To save me from this drought
Give me something to cry about
I don't want to keep going south

I've been forgetting things that matter
That grudge I'm not sure where it came from
I did want people to like me
I feared that they'll know me

The poison I was, she was vain
The poison I was, wasn't insane

So who wore the mask?
That tried to drown the clown
She was a friend we're despicable
How could we think we won't take the fall?

Sometimes I drown myself in thoughts
Just because I can't seem to fathom
Why young girls tear each other apart
Like us who started the spark

The poison I was, she was vain
The poison I was, wasn't insane

We took the seat as a hater
Told ourselves we were better
Barefaced liars, betrayals
It's a room full of traitors

Hoping one day we'll make it
When it's time for the world to shift
Now we're lying about the truth
A mistake we both know we planned

Underneath we are all the same
But I promise we aren't insane
Underneath we are all the same
All the same
Learning from our mistakes
Our mistakes

I've been forgetting things that I did
I'm sure there's no room for forgiving me
I'm done with people liking me
Maybe this time they'll know me

The poison I was, she was vain
The poison I was, wasn't insane