Beside You

I hate myself, but I'm in love with you
And you love yourself, and you hate me too
So much in common, except sense, we both resent our every move
Like both to spent to spend another fuck on us, no me and you
Suppose best choice would be to give in close it up, and throw it out
But like hoarders, we can't let shit go, and so, instead, we just trash our house
Throwing fits, then throwing shit, to throwing fists, then over it
Go to sleep, wake up the next day, like it's now some older shit
Like boulders rolling off our shoulders, so many yesterdays that we forgave
Wipe clean both our slates completely blank, refill them with brand new hate
Until no more can we each take, both screaming, pleading, need escape
But feeling like if split ways now, this whole time been a waste
And neither one of us can stomach the bitter taste of such defeat
Won't admit when either one is wrong, claim fault, or speak apologies
Seeming bleak, what future brings, keeps me so weak, I'm crawling on my knees
Right back you, to pick me, then tear me back down off my feet

Never felt as lonely as I do beside you
Communicate only by screaming till we both turn blue
Pretending all the lies are true, because, well, what's the use
Comfortable in this captivity you hold me to

She says I'm wrong for staying gone, but when I'm home we only fight
She's always wrong, I'm never right, but if up and left, she'd hold down tight
She's kryptonite to Superman, she's like dry land to Aquaman
She makes me weak, but I stand strong, let go, hold on, do all I can