The Crisis

Count my blessings but they never are enough
I look at all I've done and it is never enough
I feel like everything that I do is not enough
I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING I DO IS VOID OF WORTH

Hello there, can you help me for tonight?
I'll do anything you ask for a price
Doesn't matter if you make me feel alive
Get a hold of me or I will lose my mind

Am I living my life?
Only when it feels right
But for half of the time
I just want me to die
You could take me so high
But it never saw light
So I'm going alone Staying broken inside

I ain't part of the herd
I'm ahead of the curve
Wasting all of my words, cause I cannot be heard
After all that I learned
I just feel like I'm burned
I ain't mad I'm just hurt
Cause I feel like the worst

Just keep talking to me
Just keep walking with me
I don't think I can breathe, without you right next to me
Just keep talking to me
Just keep walking with me
I don't think I can breathe, without you right next to me

And it's all that I see
Pain is covering me
And I cannot be me
So I let it all bleed
I don't feel like I'm free
I don't feel like I'm me
Just hold me tighter now, why don't you see?

Really no use
Bleeding too profuse
Just look past my issues
All my fault I'm misused
Self inflicted abuse
Blowing fuses no truce
Its all I ever produce

I can't breathe
I don't wanna fucking breathe
If I stop breathing the pain will go away
I don't want to be here anymore

I really hate it
Appreciate it.
Mental distortion is now recreated
I really hate it
Appreciate it.
Mental distortion is now recreated
Can't evade it
Cause I made it
Your the sickness in me
I can't make it
Can't evade it
Cause I made it
Your the sickness in me
I can't make it leave!

I longed deeply for some sort of revelation or epiphany to strike my mind
Yet I sat there, lifeless and unrecognizable to all those who knew me