Dark Days

Been so many dark days, dark nights
Took a lotta long days, hard fights
Been so many
Been so many
Been so many dark days, felt like a deer stuck in lights
Too many dark days, should I even get up and fight?
Too many dark days, I should just give up right?
Too many dark days, I'm sick of cryin' at night

Dark days, Flashback to 2016
August 8, My family lost a king
He wasn't perfect, but to me he meant everything
His daughter lost her father, left his girl with no wedding ring
"Just have patience" My momma told me stay down and pray
I couldn't take it, I tried but I ain't know what to say
Spanish teacher told me "Lo Siento, take it day by day"
Found a little healing in his daughter, took his whole face
When we got the call, I was on vacay at the pool
My other cousin stopped me in the hall and told me the news
Spoke wit' his mom. Of course she felt the pressure too
But how imma pray for somebody, I'm goin' thru depression too

Been so many dark days, dark nights
Took a lotta long days, hard fights
Been so many
Been so many
Been so many dark days, felt like a deer stuck in lights
Too many dark days, should I even get up and fight?
Too many dark days, I should just give up right?
Too many dark days, I'm sick of cryin' at night

Fast forward, a few months later granny moved in
She fell a couple times, and her health wasn't improving
That cancer started eatin' her body even her mind
I just wished she could be happy for the rest of her time
But I could feel her spirit slowly fading away
By my birthday I was prepared to get that news any day
She held on for 2 more months, but then went to me her Father
6 months later, heartbreak would be what brought her her daughter
So that's both my grandmas gone before I'm 18
Used to cry all by myself, so I wouldn't cause a scene
I mean, my momma lost her grandma and her mother
I had to be strong for her. At least The Lord ain't come and take my mother

Been so many dark days, dark nights
Took a lotta long days, hard fights
Been so many
Been so many
Been so many dark days, felt like a deer stuck in lights
Too many dark days, should I even get up in fight?
Too many dark days, I should just give up right?
Too many dark days, I'm sick of cryin' at night

Been too many dark days, but I cannot give up
Sumn in my head said God ain't gone leave me stuck
One I got up out the bed and said, "Smile until you feel betta
Happiness is temporary, Joy a make you heal betta"
So I escaped into my notebook
Always hate bein' in pain, turn my rhymes to a joke book
It was then that I decided, "Take control of my destiny
Passion and persistence mixed wit' talent is the recipe"
That smile cover my pain but please don't mess
Loose screws attaching my brain to the rest of me
Eva since my cousin was slain my mind arresting me
Still trynna step ova pain, get to a betta me
To a betta me



Credits
Writer(s): Kyla Woodards
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