Birthday!

(K this is gonna suck but like, um, it's fine)

Oh fuck
I'm 21
Honestly I thought this would be way more fun
Guess what
I hate to break it to ya
But honestly this kinda sorta sucks
(Damn)

I'm not
Who I wanna be
Cuz I still don't look like the girls on TV
Didn't get a boyfriend, dropped 2 programs
Self-sabotaged again

My hair's a mess
I don't know how to dress
And I've never been more stressed

But I'm not gonna blow the candles out
Gonna let this place burn down
Watch my dreams crash to the ground
I got no wishes anyway
There's way too much to hate
And I'm crying on my birthday

Gonna celebrate
But I wish it weren't my birthday

This is still my party
(This is still my party)
And I'll cry if I want to
(And I'll cry if I want to)
Even if I don't want to
(Even if I don't want to)
Most times I don't want to
(Shut up)

Cuz I still feel like I'm a kid
But I don't wanna talk about it
So tonight I'm gonna pretend
Like everything's fine

But my hair's still a mess
I still don't know how to dress
And I'm clinically depressed

But I'm not gonna blow the candles out
Gonna let this place burn down
Watch my dreams crash to the ground
I got no wishes anyway
There's way too much to hate
And I'm crying on my birthday

Gonna tolerate today
Cuz I hate my birthday

And if I live to 22
Hope I'm not still thinking about you
Cuz I wasted too much time
This should be the time of my life
I just wanna feel alive

So I'm not gonna blow the candles out
Gonna let this place burn down
Watch my dreams crash to the ground
I got no wishes anyway
There's way too much to hate
And I'm crying on my birthday

Gonna celebrate
(Gonna celebrate)
Can't ever have my cake
(Oh no)
Gonna celebrate
But I wish it weren't my birthday



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Writer(s): Hannah Kim
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