The Stuttering

Lovely
Like the shine in the moon
I hope we can talk again soon
Before it's too late
In the night

Hold me
Cause my words are too scattered
To show you, you matter
You're my high

With all of this chaos
My brain doesn't know
Who to trust
Is my old self or you the right answer?

I want you to listen
But not to the words I speak
But to the stuttering
In between which means
I'm nervous

I'm not quite sure what to say
To make you inclined to stay
But I'll talk to you any day
Although I'm just so nervous

And when we see each other
The room gets warmer
Than everyone admits
But I know
Or I hope
It's warm for you too

I solemnly swear that I'll treat you with kindness
I don't understand
How you clear me from sadness
And time is so stressful
But I've never been so excited
To see someone not even dressed up
The glasses you wear and the curls in your hair
You don't dare to arm wrestle because you are scared to
And I am a weirdo a no-one with fear of
The world I am in but I am safe with you
We are so different I'm a wreck you're perfect
And somehow we fit in like peas in a pod
You knit while I play and I swear that each day is the
First one I met you although it seems odd
And somehow the future has gotten less scary
Since you showed me so many things aren't wrong
You're strong with your actions and kind with your words
And you never forget anything that you've heard
I can't comprehend how I can be so lucky
To see you so often you seem so happy
To answer my phone calls my facetime's my Snapchat's
Even though you understand you will laugh back

So I hope you see that I might be dramatic at times
Where someone would cry
I see that you are strong even though people might
See your gentle eyes and be wrong
My words can be scrambled but you can just handle
My bs that nobody else understands
I might be outgoing but I'll get real shy by a simple request
To just hold your hand