pray for closure

We can't run away forever
Face yourself inside the mirror
Look into your eyes
I know it's hard to find whats' in your mind, yeah
Drugs let you avoid your demons
But it won't fill the void
In your heart
I know it's hard

So I just wanna know
What I did to deserve this
Feeling I never asked for
Take it all away for a chance to feel alive again
Tell me what it is I have to give (What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live ('Cause I don't understand)
Anything about myself at all
Like all the things I've done that I cannot recall
So tell me what it is I have to give (What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live ('Cause I don't understand)

Told her how it feels to wanna die
I say that I'm emotionless but tears flow down my eyes
I say that I'm afraid of pain but pain helps me survive
Pointless bloodshed, the war over my mind
I hope it gets me high
There's no such thing as gorgeous suicide
I've been chasing myself so why can't I see you for miles?
I've been out of my body so, for me, it's been a while
I think maybe I've been plagued since a child
Can you delete my file?
Waking up daily
Worrying about the same things
That hurt me for years and years
I hope that god eats my fears (Or else I will)
Pray for closure
Can't keep my composure
When you come around
Feel myself breaking down

So I just wanna know
What I did to deserve this
Feeling I never asked for
Take it all away for a chance to feel alive again
Tell me what it is I have to give (What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live ('Cause I don't understand)
Anything about myself at all
Like all the things I've done that I cannot recall
So tell me what it is I have to give (What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live ('Cause I don't understand)