Fake Smiles

Lately I have lost the will to smile
I'm not even sure what I'm fighting for
Sometimes I just go out and try to see if there
Is anything more

I remember a time when I was truly happy
I was a good, good kid and so full of life
I made a good go of things even though I was never
The sharpest knife

I don't remember a time I was truly happy
I can't tell you, I don't feel, quite like me
Always put a happy face on, always trying to please
Everybody

And now my mental health has fallen over
And I'm not sure that it has what it takes to go on
And my body is just a temple that's crumbling
And everyone's gone

I still get my nightmares all the time
I rebelled and I let those bedbug's bite
Sometimes being a good person just isn't enough
I've lost all my fight

I've made this bed now, I have to lie in
I've got so many wounds, but invisible scars
And now I can barely stand myself
And the only girl that's left, is this old guitar

And now my mental health has fallen over
And I'm not sure that it has what it takes to go on
And my body is just a temple, that's crumbling
And everyone's gone