Pretend

I'm dead inside, but I don't know why
Popped one pill, now I feel alright
Got some things that I know you'll like
Drink alone to get you off my mind
I'm dead inside, but I don't know why
Popped one pill, now I feel alright
Got some things that I know you'll like
Drink alone to get you off my mind

I'm sittin' next to my window lookin' out at the rain
Takin' chemicals just tryin' to ease off the pain
So many thoughts, deep and dark enterin' my brain
But still, your voice in my head be keepin' me sane
I see the blood on my walls, they startin' to stain
And see the smoke in the floors preparin' to flame
I feel the rush of the substances coursin' my veins
'Til a new day comes around and I'm usin' again
So many 'ccurrences where all I seem to feel is shame
So many 'ccurrences where all I seem to feel is blame
So many clouded memories that I can't seem to shake
No matter how much I try, they could never be replaced
I wish you could see my face
You could see my grace
See the remorse that I carry with me every day
What I endured is somethin' that will never go away
I'm so appalled, but fuck it, 'cause it's like
You got me fightin' so many demons
Some I never knew I even had
'Til I confessed my thoughts and feeling' upon this pad
I sit and I laugh because I know that you've changed me
Even though it's so far away from the picture I painted
I can't look away
No, it's time that I face
The reality that has struck me, I've accepted my fate
I've come to grips with the fact that mind is interlaced with the twisted fantasy that I just cannot escape

I'm dead inside, but I don't know why
Popped one pill, now I feel alright
Got some things that I know you'll like
Drink alone to get you off my mind
I'm dead inside, but I don't know why
Popped one pill, now I feel alright
Got some things that I know you'll like
Drink alone to get you off my mind