Hamster Wheel

Calloused knuckles white against my sink
And inches from the mirror
I couldn't recognize a thing
Just a face in fear
My five minute drive
I would drag it out to ten
Just to spend
Less time in a hamster wheel
For security It wasn't worth it
Just to feel
Empty and unfulfilled
Like a failure just standing still
And now that I found the will
To quit and take the risk

I wish I realized this sooner
Oh no I hope it's not too late
The years are passing fast
Can I pick up where I left off last?
Or did I compromise my fate?
I hope it's not too late, I hope it's not too late

Who am I now?
Just a checklist of mistakеs?
Can I erase my breakdowns and anxiеty?
My past isn't me, that's the last I wanna feel

Empty and unfulfilled
Like a failure just standing still
And now that I found the will
To quit and take the risk

I wish I realized this sooner
Oh no I hope it's not too late
The years are passing fast
Can I pick up where I left off last?
Or did I compromise my fate?
I hope it's not too late, I hope it's not too late

I played it smart I played it safe
Why do I feel like such a waste?
It's black and white, I'm black and blue
And I've got nothing, I've got nothing

I played it smart I played it safe
Why do I feel like such a waste?
It's black and white, I'm black and blue
And I've got nothing left to lose
But it's getting harder and harder
Yeah it's getting harder and harder

I wish I realized this sooner
Oh no I hope it's not too late
The years are passing fast
Can I pick up where I left off last?
Or did I compromise my fate?
I hope it's not too late, I hope it's not too late