The Catch

Feeling sick, as usual I got a million yous
Clouding my thoughts, true god, it really kills the view
Last big decision I made, I didn't think it through
Shit I still pass it off as what I'm supposed to do
No regrets, get it tatted on my chest, it doesn't justify it
Got a big jet plane, but not enough to fly it
Spit this shit in the rain so you can't see me crying
Yeah the buoy is a bitch now you can quit the lyin
What the fuck you expect from me I am not a saint
But I'm tryna be better when Arizonans ain't
Growing up I was never known to associate with shame
Now I'm older my ego's grown in a different shape
Hell my heart is on fire for something bigger still
Not feeling distracted enough I need a big appeal
And my social circle too big now I need a bigger will
I guess that comes with the territory when you need to heal
Her mum told her not to fuck with it, she fuck with it
But she cool when she find out that it was Duck that did it
And even better when she learn I got the judge aquitted
I might've dropped out early but I'll go back and get it
Fuck it I am so talented I can brag about it
But don't get too riled up or get in your bag about it
Coz by tomorrow my head'll find a new way to doubt him
Coz every day goes by and still nobody has found him
Yeah the bodies are lining up now but what's the reason
Coz all these dickheads will tell you that it is hunting season
Yeah you called her to meet I bet that was fucking pleasing
Your skin is whiter than me why does that line feel like treason
Get in my head for a minute the fraction's limited
Only time was at high school I felt I fitted in
And that's ironic the first time that I slid it in
I got the fear and the spots when I didn't fit it in

The devil's got me by the dick and she won't let go
Why am I going out again it's coz she said so
Will I get into heaven it seems like hell no
Once I sunk below standard I let the bench go
When I met her she looked the same in the photos
Without the eating disorder, vodka and no doz
I guess that's the way she pushed her way to the front row
I guess that's why she's always around when the blunts rolled
The catch is for me to find out I had to be there
And this is where it gets dark just so your prepared
I'm pretty good now at managing it don't be scared
It's pretty normal for me to go where the beast lives
And so we're clear the girl in this ain't the same one
A combination of stories I couldn't save one
We're at the end of the bag asking to save some
Yeah that girl is a monster she got some brave gums
Coz every party we go to now is a fuckin chore
'Specially when your only reason is to fuckin score
How bout you woo the girl at work who's been so fuckin warm
So you can stay home all day and mow the fuckin lawn
Twenty years down the track now you can cheat again
Bet you forgot how it feel when we were bein the friend
It's alright as long as you let her breathe and then
Make a sincere apology and fall on your knees again
Worst part is there's no option to be the bad guy
Coz if you are then you might as well now say bye bye
We've seen forgiveness given throughout our whole lives
I think it kills you a little bit on the inside
Our see our women do it more than they should do
I can't believe the amount of pain they've been put through
I've been to work, I've been to school, been put to good use
But I still haven't done as much as I could do