Cut

Look at me my face turns red
I'm a prisoner in my head
You are trapped inside my heart
You will always be a part
Your soul running through my veins
My heart's the prison skin's the chains
Cut myself and watch it bleed
Drain it all until you're freed

Never again I say each time
It's like a tally, I'm adding lines
Pain distracting from the pain
Shame adding to the shame
Reminding me that I'm still real
Desperate for the scars to heal
Hurt myself to feel release
It's my decision my disease

Hello darkness my old friend
I'd hoped that last time was the end
How could I be so naive
The cycle's too clear to believe
The pain distracts but leads to shame
The shame will always lead to pain
Should I give up and let you win?
And fill me with your dark again

I'm not who I was before
It's a new chapter, I've closed that door
I haven't felt that way in years
There's no use dwelling on these fears
I'm stronger than I used to be
I've got no darkness left in me
And if it ever starts to show
I'll kill it off before you know

I'm not who I was before
Look at me my face turns red
It's a new chapter, I've closed that door
I'm a prisoner in my head
I haven't felt that way in years
You are trapped inside my heart
There's no use dwelling on these fears
You will always be a part
I'm stronger than I used to be
Cut myself and watch it bleed
I've got no darkness left in me
Drain it all until you're freed
And if it ever starts to show
Cut myself and watch it bleed
I'll kill it off before you know