If Only

I told myself I wouldn't do a goodbye letter like this ever again...
But here I am...
I'm sorry

If only I could find a way to get up out of my head
My head my head
If only I could find a way to get up out of my bed
My bed my bed

One more day for me of feeling broken
It's so often that I be so hopeless
Always fighting with, these emotions
And it gets so hard for me to keep on going
But I do
I just got a lot to prove
I got too much going on it's like I'm living in the zoo
It's all because of music that I even make it through
I've done everything myself, I don't even got a crew, yeah
I don't know why I
Never feel alive
Truth is hard to hide
I just want to die
I feel so alone
I might go for broke
No one knows it tho
I might overdose
I can feel the pain
Thoughts inside my brain
Everybody say
I just need a break
Think that's worse to me
It don't work for me
I might need surgery
But that's just personally

If only I could find a way to get up out of my head
My head my head
If only I could find a way to get up out of my bed
My bed my bed
If only I could find a way to get up out of my head
My head my head
If only I could find a way to get up out of my bed
My bed my bed

Life goes by and I can feel it fly, it's like
I'm looking out the window while I be inside, yeah
I just need to feel a little piece of mind
It's like I'm still suicidal and I think its time
I got all these bad thoughts I need to tune them down
I got people that depend on me I'm too stressed out
Everything is so dark I have to move them clouds
And if my story is a lie I want the truth then now, yeah
My whole life it's like I'm tryna make it, but
I got all these thoughts and I just can't escape it
Every other day is like some make or break shit
And I don't ever smile when I do I fake it, yeah
Lately I don't feel like I could find my way
And if I do I'm afraid that I might find my grave, yeah
I can hear what people from the sidelines say
And it's affecting how I think now my mind might break

If only I could find a way to get up out of my head
My head my head
If only I could find a way to get up out of my bed
My bed my bed
If only I could find a way to get up out of my head
My head my head
If only I could find a way to get up out of my bed
My bed my bed



Credits
Writer(s): Derek Nalette
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