Quarantine Thoughts

Ima vent for a minute, like I'm in therapy
If I have a bad day, only 2 people are there for me
Every day feels the same, I think Ima go insane
Cuz there's only so much that I can rap 'till it's the same
Every day I feel alone, I just wanna throw my phone up against the wall
So no one's hittin' up my phone
I know God's lookin' down, and I know He has a plan
But I just don't get why this is in the plan
But I guess it brings content, so I can drop an album
Quarantine wrote 50, 41, I had to trash 'em
Cuz they all sound the same, just how I'm depressed
Like, all the anxiety is goin' up from my chest
My sleep schedule's messed
I swear, I get no rest
Four to Seven isn't it, I cry into my chest
I need someone to listen, is anybody hearin' this?
I need someone to talk to before my depression gets serious
Sometimes I hear voices in my head
They makin' me think - Should I reach for happiness before it's gone in a blink?
Sometimes I think - What's happened to me? 7 Years, someone said "It's like he's rappin' to me"
So I gotta keep goin', that's what keeps me goin'
I really need the love, and the love is what they showin'
But they can't help the pain that's sittin' in my brain
Not one person can, it's like I'm sittin' in the rain
But maybe quarantine brought my true self to life
Not one suicidal thought, I never looked at a knife
It's just bad days and sad days, but Ima get through it
But, if Ima be honest, I don't know how much longer I can do it